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 1-It was a regular thing when I was a child to hear person2 say with negative insinuation about me  A child like this never existed for me for hardly a worthy reason. 

2-Person2 also used to make sexual remarks and comments just for fun, and when she does that you can count on person3, like  clockwork, to tell her not just Mom do not say obscene things, but almost always must have the additional attachment in front of the little ones, cementing my being a child. 

3- I also remember how that same person3 smiled at me like I am a child even though I was thirty six or over at that time, when I while talking to him, once referred to a men-and-women thing. And person2 may make a similar smile for me having an adult like thing as simple as that of me feeling a little headache because of missing drinking tea, and that was at the age of thirty five or over. On the other hand, I remember about that same person3 how once when I was probably less than ten years old (which makes him less than twenty two) and he as part of talking about something referred, just in theory, to me getting married, and person2 immediately jumped in to pump him saying If he gets married you would be like a father to her. I actually think because of that person3 mentally positioned himself with fatherhood privilege toward me. One thing in support of this is how he many times confuses calling his son with calling me. 

4-Another example is how much it was a normal occurrence and acceptable that I keep addressing person5 by name trying to talk to him about something while he keeps his head looking away from me like I am not there and person2 if present may justify that saying his thoughts are elsewhere. Actually her own behaviour is hair pulling disastrous in how she disregards me or, at best, how when I talk to her she can keep looking at me for only seconds before her head gets turned to the other direction in a manner that is unbelievably like being pulled with a rope away from my direction.

5-Person4 supposedly read in a book that adolescence may continue to the age of 28, and of course It must apply to me. But apparently attaining to that age was also not sufficient for me. I remember how once person2 smiled at me and for no reason said adolescence killed us and I was 32 or 33 at the time.

6- And speaking about how measures may be updated for me, and also related to #2 above, when I was at the age of 38 and living with person2, that same person3 sometimes comes and speaks in a voice no one would mistake as not easily hearable from my room, about how one cousin of us now deserves to be seriously counted because that person crossed the age of 40. Then he stopped doing that when I became 39. Unfortunately I did not stay there to the age of 41 or older to see what other things still excludes me from equal existence to others or how far the age of adulthood would be raised this time. 

7- Actually age numbers may apply to me differently than others even at the same time. There is one related person who was seen as associated with me and, according to person2, only 6 months older than me. This person sent them a letter wondering if they can find him a wife here and they open the letter and laugh at it. I cannot think of any reason for that except that association with me. If that is not enough, later when his several years younger brother came here it was the opposite way. Even one time person2 told me with regard to a visit that brother had had to them earlier while I remained in my room, not you could have come and sat with the guy but you could have come and saluted similar to what I used to be told and required to behave toward a visiting uncle or aunt when I was a child.

8- When person6 was in prison they used to send him comic books. After those books get received back from the prison, I, like the rest, also read in them. But, unlike the rest, it was very hard for me to escape being accused of fracturing those books. One of them could be engaged in doing another thing and not giving attention to the matter or even looking at my direction but still throw that accusation at me. Trying to convince them otherwise by telling them that having those books spend time in prison is more fit to be the reason felt as frustrating as talking to the walls. Then when person6 came out of prison he said that he did not even read those comic books but others in the prison did.

9- One time while I was a child probably at the age of seven or around that I farted while there were some guests. It was just a little sound so I turned my head to see if someone else heard me and apparently there was none but person5 who immediately announced it to the rest in the form of a joke that I make a fart then search for it. Then I kept being joked at as the one who used to fart then look for his fart to my thirties and until I stopped talking to them beyond what is necessary.